~ I AM ME ~

While going through miscellaneous blogs, I came across a piece of text which I just couldn't resist stealing. I really touched some corner of my heart for its blunt edged straight-forwardness. Here it is...

I Am Responsible For Myself

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I am responsible for myself
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I am responsible for living my own life
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I am responsible for tending to my own spiritual, emotional, physical, and financial well-being.
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I am responsible for identifying and fulfilling my own needs, wants and desires.
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I am responsible for living according to my own values and standards.
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I am responsible for knowing and defending my own boundaries.
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I am responsible for solving my own problems and for living with those I cannot solve.
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I am responsible for making up my own mind, even when this means, disagreeing with others.
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I am responsible for re-evaluating a situation and changing my mind when appropriate.
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I am responsible for setting my own priorities and for achieving my own goals.
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I am responsible for my own decisions, and their outcomes.
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I am responsible for whom I love and for how I choose to express that love.
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I am responsible for what I do to others and for what I allow others to do to me.
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I am not expected to be perfect.
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I am not expected to forsee every consequence of every action.
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I am not expected to be responsible for random events.
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I am not expected to do more than my fair share.
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I am not expected to be responsible for other people's actions, feelings, needs, or problems, except when I choose.
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All of me, every aspect of my being is important.
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I count for something.
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I matter.
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My feelings are valid.
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My thoughts are appropriate.
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I trust and believe in myself.
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I value my wants and needs.
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I have rights and I am expected to stand up for those rights.
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I do not deserve and will not tolerarte, abuse or constant mistreatment.
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The decisions I make, and the way I coduct myself, will reflect my high self-esteem.
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I am unique and special.
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Within me is infinite value.
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~ I AM ME ~

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Raging Heart

Something I wrote during my weekend trip. This is a heavily edited version of what I initially felt like, but this comes quite close to what I wanted to express then than what I had initially written. A few more works to be smoothened, let's see...


Sitting by the sea,
Here I am again,
Back to a place I’ve been before.
Where I once saw a future
Some things I couldn’t see coming then;
Or did I just ignore them?

Remembering the days,
I watched it rain heavily,
the Great Arabian Sea stretching before me;
Reminding days from my past,
Images of me
Praying, writing, celebrating, crying.

I promise today,
I won’t shed a tear for her.
I will be never go back in the jungle of those memories,
Ever again…

I’ll come back again,
Someday in future.
When I’ll have a past,
I would be so proud of.
It will be the same sea,
And so will the resort be.
I won’t come alone then,
With me, I will have that someone special.

That day would be so unlike today,
When I lead a life aimless & soulless;
When I struggle to find a cause to live,
When my eyes stay glued on the road to my heartland,
Hoping that someone would walk this way one day.

There she will be then,
Keeping me warm in stormy nights;
Hush my raging heart
Look at me benevolently & kiss my cold forehead;
Spread her warm feathered wings over me
Tuck me into the bed & Kiss me Goodnight.

I am not sure if I have already completed this thought, but I would rather publish it here today than forgetting it forever.


Again a bad dream,
I came out of my bed & looked around,
Shaking, fearful of darkness,
Surrounded by my fears,
This insecurity that I can't fight.

Bogged down with responsibilities,
I am held back,
Like a river by a dam,
I am dying to break free;
Run wild again,
Just as it used to be,
Once upon a time.

But I can't even pity me,
Let me be corrupted by a handful of bugs,
It all looks so remotely controlled,
That I can't even imagine;
What lies ahead.

Again I feel depressed,
Suppressed by demons in my head,
And I let go,
Silent watch my darkest thoughts come true,
Do I not want to live,
Nah, that isn't half the truth,

So here I go again,
Gutting my dream house to a handful of ashes,
& mourn a few more days,
To resurrect myself some other day.